I don't pretend to have any Shame

I felt whole for the first time about a week go, in about 2 years. There was some question as to where I am, how I feel or my contentedness.

I cancelled all my online dating profiles, deleted OKcupid, the only thing left is Tinder on my phone, and honestly The only reason I keep it is to show people that Tinder exists on Windows Phone at work. It felt liberating. It's basically a full time job; convincing someone, based solely on little white boxes on the internet and a few pictures, to meet you, and there's no guarantee there will be a connection. I have succeeded 3 times at this, and none of them panned out.  Besides, I'd rather take that energy and put it into developing existing or new skills, fostering existing relationships. That's not to say I'm not open to things as they develop, but I'm done chasing that carrot.

Things feel great, and are great, and I felt like sharing it with the world. More The Weeknd now.

You just wanna fill the void now

I can tell that you've been yelling at him all night long

And I can hear it in your voice now

He got you smoking extra packs a day

Don't you worry 'bout me talking

I know why you've been coming

I'll be quiet, this ain't nothing to me

Just wrap your legs around my waist

I won't stop until you ask me

Don't you worry 'bout us messing up my sheets

Cause unlike you I got nothing to hide

I don't pretend to have any shame

I got a box we could put all your lies in

Until the end of days

You know that I will be a call away

The call you make when you're all alone

And I know that I will always be the one

You repent when you are done