When the sun comes up, What song will you sing?

I'm exhausted. It's morning now, 10min till I'm off. Thats assuming people actually show up for work.



Pet Peeve Number 34782034890234903:

People who don't respect other peoples time. If you're sick, thats fine, stay home. But 90% of the time it's bullshit (And I know this). A 10 hour shift may not seem like much of a stretch from an 8hr, but it's killer in the long run. I need my fucking sleep. Show up for work fuckers.

Shift+Tues

I’m not ashamed to admit a lot of my faults. I’m very good at self-analysis and sometimes, it’s all I do. I wish there were some things I could change about myself. But try as I might, they always seem to come back in new and exciting ways. My ego is pretty big. A girl like Allison keeps my honest. When it gets to big, she keeps me in check. I couldn’t ask for anyone more honest. I’ve made a lot of mistakes, some I don’t know if I’ll ever recover from, and yet she stands by me. I’m thankful.

Things I keep trying to change but always fail at;

Not being so self involved. This one is a problem a lot of people have. I get so wrapped up in what’s good for me, or what’s best for me. I don’t think about anyone else really. This is a personality trait I hate about myself, especially when I compare it to how selfless some of those around me are. Try as I might, my first thoughts are generally of me, but the trade of it is, it lets me chastise myself and usually before I put my own foot in my mouth, I can stop and think twice about my reasoning.

Speaking first then thinking. I open my big mouth before thinking almost all the time. Ironically the only time I don’t is when I’m in an argument against a loved one. Then I keep my mouth shut. But 99% of the time I speak my mind without thinking about how it sounds, or what I’m saying. Some people would say they appreciate the honesty. Most of those people don’t understand what Tact is. Every time I’ve tried to change this, it’s made me moody and combative.

Keeping promises. One could say the simple answer is don’t make them. But sometimes I honestly believe I will follow through. I have every intention of such things. But then the time comes and for one reason (excuse) or another I can’t come through. I really hate this part of me. I feel I’m an honest person most of the time. But I have this bad habit. I don’t quite know how to change this. I’m working on it.

This was just a thought I was having. And decided to release.

Penny Arcade - Penny Arcade: The Series, Season 2, Episode 29 - The Bachelor Party - Part 2

Penny Arcade - Penny Arcade: The Series, Season 2, Episode 29 - The Bachelor Party - Part 2

Tradition

Listening to: Queens of the Stone Age - Regular John

Traditions. We all have them, we all either love or hate them. But I'm not going to talk about personal traditions, as they are that. Do what you will when you feel like it. No, today I'm talking about the traditions of everyone. Those dates everyone deems "special". With the advent of Valentines day approaching, and for the second consecutive year of not being single around this time of year in a LONG TIME, I'm finding myself more annoyed than ever at this.

Holidays are supposedly the time of year we show those we care about affection on a grand scale. Everyone gets everyone a gift, invites them to parties, says warm things. Even if we don't particularly know the person, we're inclined to say "Merry Christmas!" or "Happy new year!". Bullshit. It was an arbitrary day picked by some dudes almost 2 thousand years ago. I show my affection to who I want when I want. I bought Allison an iPad last year when they came out. I had planned it for 2 months. I didn't do it for any other reason than she had mentioned, in passing, that it'd be cool to have one. On that same token, I didn't get her a gift for valentine's day. Now she's big into tradition, I can't fault her too much for that, it's just I never have been. So when we get into a fight over these things, it usually doesn't lead anywhere; She wants what she wants, I want to ignore the stipulated dates for gift giving and just get her stuff when I feel like it. She didn't seem to mind the iPad, once she got over the initial shock that I had spent 600 bucks on her.

In the end, I always cave to some form of required giving on these days. Not because I am at my core a soft hearted fool pretending to be an asshole, but because I know it'll make her smile, it makes her happy. In the end that's all I want to do, and if biting back my opinion will do it, I'm willing to make that change, not to my opinion, but to what I'm willing to do to make her happy.

A lot of people think the way I do, but most of the people I know don't. They like the structure of having specified days to receive and give gifts on. They don't like randomly receiving a delivery with their name on it they did not order. They assume they now must get me something. That's not the point of gift giving for me. When I see something and buy it for someone else, I don't really worry about what I will get in return. I don't want anything. Mostly because I am the most notorious of everyone I know to get gifts. It's hard to get me something I didn't ask for because usually I'll have bought it for myself. This is why I think I have these opinions and why I feel the way I do about it.

So if I ever get you a present, please, don't get me one back, that's not why I did it.

Desktop And Tops for January

So here we are, it's been a month, holy crap have I accomplished a lot of nothing. Which is fine.

I've worked on some stuff here and there, and helped the woman with some of her things. Now it's time to get cracking. though.

Top Music

Los Angeles - Sugarcult

Sleepwalking - The Birthday Massacre

We Are All on Drugs - Weezer

I think we're alone now - The Birthday Massacre

Memories - Weezer

Talkin 2 Myself - Eminem

So Much i - Red Hot Chili Peppers

Black Sheep - Metric

Step Down - The Moxy.

Top Movies

1. Green Hornet

2. Scott Pilgrim

3. The Dark Knight

Top TV

1. The Cape

2. V

3. Young Justice

4. Bullshit!

5. Burn Notice

Top games!

1. DC Universe Online

2. CounterStrike

3. Pokemon HEart Gold

4. Skate It (iPhone

Here is my current desktop image, and has been since near the beginning of the month. It is in anticipation of Marvel vs Capcom 3.

http://i218.photobucket.com/albums/cc286/riotknight/MyDesktopJanuary.jpg

Current Playlist

1. Los Angeles - Sugarcult
2. Soul on Fire - HIM
3. DARE - Gorrillas
4. Snow - RHCP
5. Hello Hello - The Moxy
6. 19-2000 (Soulchild Remix) - Goirllas
7. Step Down - The Moxy
8. Touch it/Technologic - Daft Punk
9. Threshold - Sex Bob-Omb
10. Badream - Jakalope
11. My Name is Jonas - Weezer
12. Pretty Girl - Sugarcult
13. 25 to Life - Eminem
14. Black Sheep - Metric
15. We Are Sex Bob-Omb
16. Sleep Walking - The Birthday Massacre
17. Right here in My arms - HIM
18. Feel it - Jakalope
19. Starstrukk (Ft. Katy perry) - 3OH!3

Fuck Today.

Listening to: "Los Angeles" Sugarcult, Lights Out.

Some days I wake up feeling like I have nothing worth doing, that I don't want to work, I don't want to keep fighting for what I want. Some days I wake up and think I can't do any better. It's these days where I need my space. Where I don't want anyone around me, and I don't want anyone's asshole opinion. Oddly, these days also tend to be my most productive. I get restless, I make impulsive decisions and occasionally solve a whack load of problems I've been having.

Today I woke up and wondered "why bother?". I woke up miserable and I wanted to punch myself in the face. When i finally dragged myself out of bed. I did my usual routine of grabbing a drink, sitting at the computer, reading my news sites and throwing on iTunes. As I sat here, listening to music and reading. I figured "Hey fucker, write a blog". I Don't know if it's a down spiral or not. I hope not. But I feel motivated. I don't know what I am going to do with this energy. I want to write, but I feel like it won't be good enough. I want to paint, But the lighting in here is shit for it. I want to get a job, but I really don't want settle for less than what I'm worth.

I always used to use this energy to clean or something ridiculous. But the apartment is relatively clean. Although after having written this, maybe it's time I get some bullshit done I've needed to do for a while. I just really don't like going to staples.

First things first, I'm off to the gym.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vATvNdMS-QM

"Los Angeles"

I want a girl, girl that won't talk back
And a job, job that gives me slack
And a car, car that won't break down
In the heat of Los Angeles
I want to go, go without a map
Far away, away, I won't get trapped
By the sound, a town, the sun beats down
In the heat of Los Angeles

One more holiday
I will not celebrate
I'm almost desperate
Cause I'm down, I'm down, I'm so beat down

This city's killing me
I want, I want, I want everything
This city's killing me
In the heat of Los Angeles

I want a love, love that won't hit back
Want sex, sex without a catch
Want a face, to trust, to feel, to lust
In the heat of Los Angeles
Want to fuck, fuck, fuck this up
Gonna feel, feel, feel you up
Had enough, enough, enough's enough
In the heat of Los Angeles

This city's killing me
I want, I want, I want everything
This city's killing me
In the heat of Los Angeles
What has become of me?
I want, I want, I want everything
This city's killing me
(I want everything)

Come on, come on
It's alive and breathing
Come on, come on
Come alive today
Come on, come on
It's a heartless beating
The sun is burning down Los Angeles
Los Angeles
Los Angeles

I want a girl, girl that won't talk back
And a job, job that gives me slack
And a car, car that won't break down
In the heat of Los Angeles

Come on, come on
It's alive and breathing
Come on, come on
Come alive today
Come on, come on
It's a heartless beating
The sun is burning down

(This city's killing me)
Come on, come on
It's alive and breathing
Come on, come on
Come alive today
(This city's killing me)
Come on, come on
It's a heartless beating
The sun is burning down Los Angeles (one more holiday)
The sun is burning down Los Angeles (I will not celebrate)
The sun is burning down Los Angeles (one more holiday)
The sun is burning down Los Angeles (I will not celebrate)