Update

Listening to: “A List for an Occasion” - Playlist; Skrillex, The Birthday Massacre, HIM, Black Keys

Eating: Salt and Vinegar chips

Drinking: Bottle of Water

Playing: The Darkness 2, King of Fighters

Watching: Battlestar Galactica, Scrubs

Mood: Anxious.

I’ve been playing a lot of King of Fighters lately. That’s been brought on by Rene and Mike more than any one else. Weird part is I have only played with them twice. It gave me a desire to bust out Capcom vs SNK 2, my favourite fighting game of all time. However, my PS3 is at my girlfriends parents house, so I haven’t been able to play it. Sadface.

Anyways, I just wrapped up the Darkness, and it felt great to have finished the game, even though it was short, the story was done (Penned by the long-time comic author). Playing a well told story like that reminds me why I so badly want to be a writer for my own stories told in interactive narrative. I was thinking for the last few weeks. I remember role playing online with a whole whackload of people, crafting characters and stories that STILL influence me today. Alicia is responsible for no fewer than 3 of my personal favourite characters from that time frame, and they in turn have influenced Astra and likely will forever, or until that story is done. And So I began writing a new.

The Re-write on Astra is rough. I’ve changed the POV of the story away from Darius and Knight, which is a way bigger change than I was expecting, Telling it from Bianca’s place switches it to a more clearly defined “New World” story. She has only heard about legends and myths from the past, she has no idea that the Mythical world is getting ready to burst into the realm of man again. Nor did she expect to have a role to play in it.

I also have the interesting task of writing for a female lead... I’m confident I can do it, but it’s not something I anticipated for the story I was apparently going to tell. it’s of little consequence over all. I want to do it, and this seems like it’ll be more fun.

What the hell have I been doing?

It’d be nice to say I’ve been writing. While that isn’t entirely untrue, it is by no means the primary thing I’ve been pouring my creativity into, no the main thing is painting. I have done better painting on the last 10-12 models I painted than I probably did in my entire year in BC and up until I painted these goobers...

But the desire to write has returned. Well, not desire... Drive? The drive to tell stories has returned. I’m working on a comic, it’s not huge, but I wanted to prepare for convention season and have something to sell. I’m just waiting on an artist who seemed eager, I may have to replace her though. Seems her life has gotten busy and she hasn’t been around. Can’t fault her for it, but I do want it ready for the end of march ideally.

I also am thinking long term for myself, and what steps I need to take to get to where I want to be in 10 years. I was thinking of getting a CompSci degree. That would allow me access to Game Programming, which would not only offer me a chance to further the studios goals, but also a chance to further my ideal goal of writing for Video Games (as writers are very rarely hired outside of the company). Also, it seems any bridging job requires I have a piece of paper saying I can do the job, regardless of whether or not I can actually do it. (I can, 90% 0f the time). So thats reason 2. Just somethings I am considering.

Bijoux Red is going well, the demo trailer should be up, and ideally, I want the game done by our first convention, that’s really up to my colleagues at this stage. I’ll do what I can to support them, but they are bearing the brunt of this, as they have been. Apparently there have been 58 Versions of the game. That blows me away. Even in script writing I only had about 10-12 versions, and each wasn’t really independent of each other.

After that there is some super secret things going on, sadly I can’t discuss them, due to the nature of it, I don’t want to jinx it, but It could be REALLY good for the studio and for me.

I’m going to try and Blog more. I say that a lot, but I honestly feel I need to, It helps me relieve some stress. Such as it is.

-j

When the sun comes up, What song will you sing?

I'm exhausted. It's morning now, 10min till I'm off. Thats assuming people actually show up for work.



Pet Peeve Number 34782034890234903:

People who don't respect other peoples time. If you're sick, thats fine, stay home. But 90% of the time it's bullshit (And I know this). A 10 hour shift may not seem like much of a stretch from an 8hr, but it's killer in the long run. I need my fucking sleep. Show up for work fuckers.

Shift+Tues

I’m not ashamed to admit a lot of my faults. I’m very good at self-analysis and sometimes, it’s all I do. I wish there were some things I could change about myself. But try as I might, they always seem to come back in new and exciting ways. My ego is pretty big. A girl like Allison keeps my honest. When it gets to big, she keeps me in check. I couldn’t ask for anyone more honest. I’ve made a lot of mistakes, some I don’t know if I’ll ever recover from, and yet she stands by me. I’m thankful.

Things I keep trying to change but always fail at;

Not being so self involved. This one is a problem a lot of people have. I get so wrapped up in what’s good for me, or what’s best for me. I don’t think about anyone else really. This is a personality trait I hate about myself, especially when I compare it to how selfless some of those around me are. Try as I might, my first thoughts are generally of me, but the trade of it is, it lets me chastise myself and usually before I put my own foot in my mouth, I can stop and think twice about my reasoning.

Speaking first then thinking. I open my big mouth before thinking almost all the time. Ironically the only time I don’t is when I’m in an argument against a loved one. Then I keep my mouth shut. But 99% of the time I speak my mind without thinking about how it sounds, or what I’m saying. Some people would say they appreciate the honesty. Most of those people don’t understand what Tact is. Every time I’ve tried to change this, it’s made me moody and combative.

Keeping promises. One could say the simple answer is don’t make them. But sometimes I honestly believe I will follow through. I have every intention of such things. But then the time comes and for one reason (excuse) or another I can’t come through. I really hate this part of me. I feel I’m an honest person most of the time. But I have this bad habit. I don’t quite know how to change this. I’m working on it.

This was just a thought I was having. And decided to release.

Penny Arcade - Penny Arcade: The Series, Season 2, Episode 29 - The Bachelor Party - Part 2

Penny Arcade - Penny Arcade: The Series, Season 2, Episode 29 - The Bachelor Party - Part 2

Tradition

Listening to: Queens of the Stone Age - Regular John

Traditions. We all have them, we all either love or hate them. But I'm not going to talk about personal traditions, as they are that. Do what you will when you feel like it. No, today I'm talking about the traditions of everyone. Those dates everyone deems "special". With the advent of Valentines day approaching, and for the second consecutive year of not being single around this time of year in a LONG TIME, I'm finding myself more annoyed than ever at this.

Holidays are supposedly the time of year we show those we care about affection on a grand scale. Everyone gets everyone a gift, invites them to parties, says warm things. Even if we don't particularly know the person, we're inclined to say "Merry Christmas!" or "Happy new year!". Bullshit. It was an arbitrary day picked by some dudes almost 2 thousand years ago. I show my affection to who I want when I want. I bought Allison an iPad last year when they came out. I had planned it for 2 months. I didn't do it for any other reason than she had mentioned, in passing, that it'd be cool to have one. On that same token, I didn't get her a gift for valentine's day. Now she's big into tradition, I can't fault her too much for that, it's just I never have been. So when we get into a fight over these things, it usually doesn't lead anywhere; She wants what she wants, I want to ignore the stipulated dates for gift giving and just get her stuff when I feel like it. She didn't seem to mind the iPad, once she got over the initial shock that I had spent 600 bucks on her.

In the end, I always cave to some form of required giving on these days. Not because I am at my core a soft hearted fool pretending to be an asshole, but because I know it'll make her smile, it makes her happy. In the end that's all I want to do, and if biting back my opinion will do it, I'm willing to make that change, not to my opinion, but to what I'm willing to do to make her happy.

A lot of people think the way I do, but most of the people I know don't. They like the structure of having specified days to receive and give gifts on. They don't like randomly receiving a delivery with their name on it they did not order. They assume they now must get me something. That's not the point of gift giving for me. When I see something and buy it for someone else, I don't really worry about what I will get in return. I don't want anything. Mostly because I am the most notorious of everyone I know to get gifts. It's hard to get me something I didn't ask for because usually I'll have bought it for myself. This is why I think I have these opinions and why I feel the way I do about it.

So if I ever get you a present, please, don't get me one back, that's not why I did it.

Desktop And Tops for January

So here we are, it's been a month, holy crap have I accomplished a lot of nothing. Which is fine.

I've worked on some stuff here and there, and helped the woman with some of her things. Now it's time to get cracking. though.

Top Music

Los Angeles - Sugarcult

Sleepwalking - The Birthday Massacre

We Are All on Drugs - Weezer

I think we're alone now - The Birthday Massacre

Memories - Weezer

Talkin 2 Myself - Eminem

So Much i - Red Hot Chili Peppers

Black Sheep - Metric

Step Down - The Moxy.

Top Movies

1. Green Hornet

2. Scott Pilgrim

3. The Dark Knight

Top TV

1. The Cape

2. V

3. Young Justice

4. Bullshit!

5. Burn Notice

Top games!

1. DC Universe Online

2. CounterStrike

3. Pokemon HEart Gold

4. Skate It (iPhone

Here is my current desktop image, and has been since near the beginning of the month. It is in anticipation of Marvel vs Capcom 3.

http://i218.photobucket.com/albums/cc286/riotknight/MyDesktopJanuary.jpg